5 appointments, 3 days, sheesh

Gonna miss my kiddo when I go to a conference for the weekend.
Just finished a good book with him and quickly are going to shift
to a new one... Haven't missed a storytime with him in a while... Even
the days when I'm coughing and unable to read much, we still have our
time together...

So. Yesterday I had to go get a PET scan done and I took a sick day since I knew I'd be useless at work before the scan since I had to fast for it.
The scan is still as isolating as it is in Hong Kong. Similar everything. Scans suck a little more now since I don't prefer to lay on my back since pain is ridiculously bad after 5 minutes. Having to lay on my back without taking tylenol? Very worrisome. Got thru it all just fine. I'm good at staying still. (Guess I have a little practice with 3 rounds of radiation!)
While I was isolated for an hour letting the radiation seep thru my body for the PET scan, the nurse pulled a miracle and scheduled a brain MRI a few hours after the PET scan.
I hated that MRI. I don't use the word too often but MRI contrasts suck totally. First I'm in a head cage and have to hold still while things bonk, buzz, whir, and shake all around. For 25 minutes. Then they injected a contrast into my poor overused vein and walked away. Nope. Not happening. Had to hit the panic button so that I could sit up and deal with the nausea side effect from the contrast, yuck. Got over it. They said it happens to those who are lightweight... Yup, that's me presently.  15 minutes more of laying still. Had earplugs and headphones on. Once in a while heard classical music. Hmm. Not so fun. Got thru it.
So I had to get both tests done for the new oncologist I'm seeing next Monday.

Today was interesting.
First I met the gastroenterologist and discussed my swallowing problems with him. Why not just schedule the stinking procedure? I'm not sure. Oh well. Next Thursday or Friday I'll be going thru an hour long procedure where they'll possibly put a stint into my esophagus. There's consequences, of course. It could slide. Go down into my stomach. It will likely make me hurt for 2-3 days as the stint expands. He only wants it in there for 6-8 months. Said it can create problems if it is there longer. Said that I have to sleep at an angle because I could have really bad acid reflux since there's no barrier anymore once the stent is in place.
Found this brochure about what to do after the stent is placed...
https://www.bostonscientific.com/content/dam/bostonscientific/endo/general/gastro-specialty/eso_stent_patient_nutrition.pdf

Next I met with my oncologist. Had good conversations with her. We went over the Foundation I results and she found that there was a immunotherapy drug that my tumor reacted three ways to "genomic alterations detected"... so she got permission from me (of course) and is now applying to get it for me through compassionate care.
The immunotherapy drug is called Temsirolimus.
http://www.torisel.com/how-torisel-works
I know it is normally connected to renal cell carcinoma. It is not on my oncologist's normal radar. She said it was very good that we had the Foundation I testing because it brought to light a drug that has a little promise. It is in a 2nd trial trying out treatment for gynecological cancers/cervical cancer and has shown promise. I'll take that hope.
https://clinicaltrials.gov/ct2/show/NCT01026792
Shall see how long compassionate use application takes. I'm still seeing the new oncologist on Monday and also another oncologist on Thursday.
We also discussed other things, liquid versions of medicine, especially tylenol... Unfortunately the Tamoxifen I take is liquid form with the flavor of licorice added in, YUCK. I HATE black licorice. I HATE the seeds as well... So I'll crush that pill.
Handed her my paper work for my Advance Directive... it came in the last Hong Kong shipping package... Good to get it sorted out and make sure the hospital knows my wishes.
Grateful a friend is helping me with paperwork and such... I'm in the process of gathering what I've already got... wills, etc.

Eating is such an issue.
Had to fast yesterday for the PET scan and afterwards met my mom and had a delicious sandwich. Unfortunately around 20 minutes into my slow eating process things got... blocked up and I couldn't figure out what to do. Had to lie down at the restaurant in a booth. Blech. Took around 25 minutes or so to recover but felt like crap and barely had any interest in dinner. Needless to say when I weighed in today I'm down to 119.5. :( Very unhappy about that but will continue to try. I'm drinking protein shakes thanks to my husband making them for me in the mornings. I'm slowly going about the days. Barely able to drink a mug of warm lemon water first thing in the morning. So odd to adjust to. But I'm trying. Dinner time is a little better. Today at lunch I had delicious soup but could only get in the broth. Sigh. Shall see. Got noodles, a little chicken and more noodles in me at dinner tonight. Better than I've eaten for a few days. Thanks mostly to my mom's cooking!!

Have another Avastin infusion tomorrow. Grateful my sister is going to be with me. I love my family. So much. I'm so grateful to spend time with them. So happy I'm close by now... Makes it so apparent to me how much I missed them last year... and how many people helped be my family in Hong Kong last year. I miss those beautiful, supportive friends...

Went to the best yoga instructor ever's class yesterday. Appreciated her advice on how to help my back, throat and eyebrows. Working to not raise my eyebrows so often. I never noticed how much I use them til now and she pointed out that it adds stress that's unnecessary. Also learned about some chair poses that should help me, give me more energy... Boy I've missed her classes. Happy to sneak in one again...  after the PET and MRI it felt good to do a healthy action.

Gotta do a crazy face too mom! :)

Thanks as always for journeying with me...
Finding promise.
Holding hope close to my heart and being patient, very patient with myself.

Glimmers, noticing them

Tuesday afternoon:
Having glimmers of hope here and there.
Talked with a oncology nurse who is also an advocate about my case. It was enlightening.
I learned that I might not have to go thru a study to get the immunotherapy drug I'm interested in.
I learned that I might be able to get financial help to take the immunotherapy drug I'm interested in.
I learned about genetic testing/Foundation I testing to analyze exactly what is going on with my tumor(s) especially after a second cancer diagnosis.
Link to info on Foundation I testing:
http://foundationone.com/docs/FM_SpecimenGuidelines_2015-03-17.pdf?__hstc=197910000.ca54bd200688390fb3cfffed497960ad.1401198872498.1432697851762.1432747722833.28&__hssc=197910000.2.1432747722833&__hsfp=196914911


Talk about a turnaround.
I talked with a radiation oncologist today and appreciated every minute. Didn't expect to say that, but I did.
We talked about many things.
The big thing that resonated for me was that she would not want to radiate my tumor area until a year has passed from the past radiation treatment site. A year. Yes, that means the tumor is growing and worrisome, but a break from radiation. I can fully accept this.
She said if there was an increase in symptoms from the tumor then she would probably change that plan- symptoms would include a dry cough, blood cough, obstruction leading to a collapsed lung...

She plans to refer me to a genetics counselor. She said "Honestly, any time a patient has more than one cancer diagnosis, we send them to a genetic counselor." Ok, sounds wise to me...
I appreciated knowing that it is highly unlikely that I'll be dealing with an operation anytime soon. Instead I'll probably be dealing with the following things:
In August:
CT with adrenal protocol to figure out what is going on with my adrenal gland
Tissue biopsy for my tumor in my chest
Other possible tests...
In September:
Possibly another PET scan
Genetics counselor

Watching Highly Evolved Human episodes always makes me smile. Appreciate the perspective... This time he shares about how having a job was so liberating in the middle of his chemo treatment. I get that. It wasn't good for me to be home for so many months... I love being around other people and having a purpose beyond being a "cancer patient"...

I went to a link today that is a "why not?" one: blue water:

http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2015/07/blue-solar-water-heals-the-body-and-spirit-here-is-how-to-make-it-3191218.html
Looks like a healthy way to have a different type of drinking water! Thanks for the heads up about this Lenore! :)

Friday more thoughts- 
Ok, a few thoughts and communications have occurred.
The board met and talked about my case more.
They said that the adrenal gland and lymph nodes will be their focus presently. They want to get a biopsy of my adrenal gland and do a mutational analysis of the cells.
Then I will need to meet with a medical oncologist who wll assess targeted therapy options for me (chemo). They might want to assess whether the adrenal gland needs to be removed.
I'll also eventually see a genetic counselor (at the end of September, nothing seems to move quick here to be honest, ech.)
I'll also see a research medical oncologist eventually who will be analyizing the mutational analysis results from the adrenal gland biopsy.

Their big question is what the relationship is between the tumors- cervic, breast, lung, lymph nodes, adrenal gland... I feel like quite the case study.

Thanks for journeying with me...